going out

tonight im taking a big risk for the beginning of a new crash diet.


ive decided to go out. ive had a very lousy week so i kinda need it.


im not going out all dressed up, to drink cocktails and dance on high heels (i might do that tomorrow with a party addicted friend though) but just sit down and talk and smoke and drink and talk and smoke and drink... i dont want to drink a lot though, cause of the cals that i def dont want! =]


but i feel i need a drink right now. and a cigarette, and some easy smalltalk.

tomorrow i will take a danceclass so at least i will burn some calories. and today i did my abs again. i absolutely hate doing abs! but my round belly could use some toning.

i hate and love lindsay in this pic. she is such a huge thinspiration for me. she looks flawless to me. bodywise. but i secretly like her messy style as well lol.
i hope this summer i will still be on a strict diet so that i am at least a little close to my ideal weight. hope i look as slim as her.

but for tonight, try to stop thinking about hunger!

edit: change of plans, im not going out. i feel tired.